I loved you more than I loved myself. I trusted you with my heart. I believed everything you told me. When you said "I love you" I believed it. It was my mistake... for this stupid heartache. You ripped my heart from my chest and devoured it. I can never love anyone the same, never. I dont know who to trust with my heart or if I can trust anyone at all. I'm scared to even like a guy now. I don't want to feel that pain again. And no matter what you have done to me I still love and miss you. I want us to be together again. I want you to hold me, to kiss me. I want to feel your arms around me and for you to tell me you love me. I miss the way your heart would beat fast when you held me. I even miss the sweet scent of your skin, the taste of your lips. Do you not see what you have done to me?
Freak it all.
I'm sorry this happened. There's not much I or anyone else can say to make it stop hurting, I know that. But don't let go. Life is too precious to let go easily. Keep hanging on; the end will come. I can't promise you the pain will end soon, nor the lies, for I know I wouldn't be speaking the truth. But the end will come.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words, Jessica. I had completely abandoned my blog and now, two years later, I have stumbled across it. It's crazy how much has chanced since then and I'm so happy to say that I'm not that sad and frail girl anymore. I want to thank you for your support, though I'm just reading your comments now; however, they are greatly appreciated.
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