Talk about unexpected: Then and Now.

It appears that some years ago I began a blog, a blog in which I had completely forgotten. Now, two years later, I'm finding it again. I'm astonished at what I read. I had forgotten how hurt and lost I had been. I pray that I will never result to such a lifestyle again and I will never let anyone affect me to such a measure of depression. It's crazy to see how much I have changed in such a short span of time. I'm so grateful that I found myself and God. At that time I believed I was a christian, but I was so lost. I allowed a silly boy to control my life and most importantly my heart... It was sad and all around stupid, but it is what everyone goes through at least once in their lifetime. I thank God that I am no longer tied to such painful anguish and that my life is nothing short of what God has planned for me. I hope that someone can learn from me and realize before it's too late that life is worth so much more then what they could ever imagine. No one should ever let themselves fall to such a level of depression that they contemplate hurting themselves, or worse, death. I know what it's like and I'm not proud of it, but it was a part of my life and I learned from it. I only hope that maybe one day some girl or boy that is struggling as I did will read this and know that they are not alone. But even more importantly they will know that God is with them, though it may not feel he is, He is.